It was hard to be here, this is the bridge where I use to live. I stood on the corner holding a sign begging for change. There were people who worked in the area who knew I lived there. They’d beep the horn and yell my name. Almost everyday they would bring me water, fruit or a breakfast sandwich from a fast food restaurant.
Just being there again put my emotions in a whirl!! There were moments when I felt like crying and other moments when I felt I needed to throw up. We had roses to sell, I had purchased them to give away to our friends and guests at United Church of Christ in Fort Lauderdale for Valentine’s Day. I purchased extra to sell – the Showering Love bus, Grace, is always in need!
Begging for Change – a Change in Life
It was so much harder than I thought it would be! Really, I never thought I’d make it out – and I certainly never wanted to go back. I felt so many emotions!! So many thoughts swirled in my head! Memories of that poor, lost girl, broken and shattered in pieces.
Piece by piece my life is becoming whole. There are still sharp, broken pieces of me and at times, I still feel the pain. I continue to heal by changing my ways. But there are fragments of yester-years and of days gone past, with such sadness and darkness.
Sometimes, I wish I could forget. But, I never want to forget the pain because I NEVER want to go back.
Building Bridges of Hope
It’s a wonderful thing, to come from living under a bridge, to building bridges within the community! And bridging resources to help others like myself find their way, is my mission in life. It’s hard to look at this picture.
Memories haunt me, the way I lived my life and the things I did trying to survive, while trying to die. My soul was dead. Or nearly dead, because I rose from that – I did make it out – someone reached out to me and I survived!
In fact, I thrived! And, because of the help I received, I was able to fulfill my vision and Showering Love was born. Out of darkness I emerge with hope of a brighter future, for me and for all!